Maestro

by Auden Dar

A symphony is like a love affair. It’s a journey that takes your heart to many places.

Omg. This is so sweet

Two hearts aren’t musicians waiting for the conductor to direct. Two souls in love don’t cease to love with the wave of a baton.

They don’t 🥺

“I was thirteen when I met my one and only muse. All my compositions and all the music I perform are inspired by her. She’s in every note, melody, and phrase.”

😭😭😭

Chad’s wife.

Noooooo he did not.

I’ve heard it only takes a moment for something to change your life. Earlier, on the subway, my heart raced like I was running a marathon. Now, it’s running in circles.

🫶🏻

“Do you compose?” I ask. He thinks for a second. “Now I do.” His voice is confident, but not cocky. It’s a statement of who he is and not what he does. “I heard a melody in my head and had to jot it down. Who knows when it’ll happen again?”

Actual goosebumps

With no sheet music in front of me, I play Élégie, and I’m transported to another place for the next few minutes. I’m free. My eyes are closed, and a slow tear falls as I perform my favorite piece. Chad said to play for myself, but I’m playing for Mom, who also loves this heart-wrenching composition. I’m playing for the woman who gave up her family, her past, her homeland, for me. The woman who works tirelessly so I can pursue my dreams.

My heart ouchie

Pride can’t comfort the lonely child in the other room, praying for her mother’s heart to heal, waiting for her mom to finally move on. It’s been fifteen years and my mother refuses to let go.

Good lord. This is beautiful and so sad

Uncle Jay convinced Mom to buy a few stocks in a computer company whose logo is an apple.

Shes gunna be a baller

“I always wanted a muse.” He unlocks a soft smile. “I found her in you.”

Crying this is so cute

“I dated a girl while I was in Germany. Nothing serious. But… you know. I thought I’d just tell you.” No, I will never forget this day. It’s the first time I understand what brokenhearted means.

Omfg nooooo poor baby

Beautiful swirls and constellations glow above me, all around me. Everywhere. Illuminating. They’re all yellow. They’re all for me!

Coupled with the song I'm actually crying 😭

“You were in tune. You played each note perfectly. But I’d like to hear a little more longing.” Chad nods, his mouth pressed. “Take your time. Think of that kiss and how you’d want it to last,” Mrs. Strayer suggests. Chad looks over at me and I’m about to fall over. “One more time, Mr. David.” With his violin tucked under his chin, his eyes sealed, Chad’s determination shines. Not only do I hear the longing in the music, I feel it. He’s playing the song my heart’s been singing since I first met him.

Oh my hearrrrrt

I don’t like you going out with someone else. I don’t want someone coming between us.

Okay but at the same time he is. I don’t like this AT ALL

“I know your type, son. You’re going to break her heart.”

All blondes do

Then it hits me: his partner, Clive, works at the Towers.

Omfg. No

“Aurelia, you’re more than my forever friend. You’re more than my girlfriend. You are and will always be her. The person I love the most. No matter where we are in our lives, you’ll always be her. Never forget that,” Chad says, his eyes filled with promise. “I love you.”

😭😩

Mom knows heartache. She lives it daily. As each day passes and I’ve yet to recover from this broken heart, she knows I haven’t been completely honest with her.

Like mother like daughter…😭

It’s taken me years to realize we can’t ask someone to love us when they don’t want to.”

Ain’t that the truth

Just because I’m young, it doesn’t mean I don’t feel the weight and anguish of a broken heart. Heartbreak doesn’t exclude youth.

Tbh I think it hurts worse that young

How is it possible to grieve for someone whose heart still beats?

😭😭😭😭😂😂 fuck this book