tense as she tells me the details of the attack and I’m shocked as I realize this was the first time she’s willingly had sex. My heart breaks and grows simultaneously for everything she went through and still chose to trust me with such a special gift. We lay there and she talks for hours. When she finishes, the air is heavy with unspoken words. We both know what she has to do but neither of us wants to say it. I’m the first to cave after several tense minutes. I sigh, “You have to disappear.” She nods against my chest.
