What I Mean When I Say I'm Autistic: Unpuzzling a Life on the Autism Spectrum

by Annie Kotowicz

Even when it’s possible for me to talk fluently, I still process ideas much better through writing. Talking feels messy, but writing clarifies and crystallizes all my thoughts and feelings.

When I'm upset I prefer to text people my thoughts and feelings rather than say them out loud because I don't think they'll come out right, or I'll forget large portions of the things I NEEDED to talk about, and then I can't bring it up later because the conversation went well and that forgotten, painful information sits with me, sits in me, because I forgot to tell someone and now I can't.