You Never Forget Your First: And He Just Might Be the Death of Me

by Millie Perez

For all the little girls who dream beyond their circumstances… Sí se puede.

“Now what?” I muffled into his shoulder. He sighed. “Now we go home and pretend that there is a life worth living after mom. And hopefully sometime real soon, we can actually start to believe it.”

Priscilla is your quintessential peaked too soon cautionary tale. Grew double d’s by the time she was a freshman in high school, and hasn’t worn a top that fully covers the upper part of her body ever since. Also, she’s a massive bitch.

Evan Cooper was my first crush. Ever.

“I hope you have a lot of air miles then.” “I have a jet, you know this,” he groans. “Yeah, I know. Just wanted to hear you say it again so you could hear how ridiculous that sounds.

“What are you doing here?! I didn’t know you were in the city!” I shriek as I give him a quick hug. “I wasn’t. But you texted us to be here today, so here I am.” He smirks as he walks back to his seat.

in the wise words of Biggie Smalls, “Mo money, Mo problems.”

I would gladly use your tush as a pillow every night, but you eat cheese like everyday and refuse to accept the fact that you’re lactose intolerant.”

Amelia has most likely broken my penis without ever having sex with me.

The confession that kept me up most of the night. Amelia Nuñez has a crush on me. Had. First crush means she was just a kid, but what about now? To think that the woman who I’ve had embedded in my heart for the better part of a decade, at one time had feelings for me.

I need to be careful; Antonio is Amelia’s brother and my best friend. Plus, he owns a gun and knows how to use it.

Mangú, queso frito, salami, arroz con habichuelas, sancocho, plátano maduro, tostones, yuca, pasteles en hoja, and mini yaniqueques.

“Kicking people out of their own beds…not letting them into family gatherings? Tsk tsk.” He gently pushes past me and into the entryway, then leans down and whispers into my ear, “Remind me to teach you some manners later tonight.”

It's official. Evan Cooper is a fucking asshole. A very sexy asshole.

OH MY GOD, DID HE BUY THOSE CONDOMS TO USE WITH ME?! Wait, no. Of course not, calm your tits woman. Keep it together!

“Miami. When I came to visit you after you had broken up with your high school sweetheart. I wasn’t there because I was on a business trip. I flew down because I knew it was your birthday, and I wanted to celebrate with you. I didn’t know it at the time, but I was about to have the best night of my life with the girl who's always had my heart.”

“Amelia, we’ve already fought about this before. You deserve better than fine. You deserve the very best, and I’m going to give it to you. Just you wait and see.”

What is a girl to do when her first crush/current wet dream declares that he has feelings for her?

Earn?! Not win but earn. How does that sound a million times more romantic?!

“Besides, I guess I’ve just always liked how your name sounded like you're a made up character. And maybe you are. You do seem too good to be true.”

There is no better way to gauge how mad a Dominican mother is at you than by hearing her yell your entire government name.

Evan kisses me like a man who has waited a decade to do so. Because he has.

“You’re gonna be the death of me woman, and I don’t even mind one bit,”

I kissed Evan Fucking Cooper.

Why did the man have to wear a tight black t-shirt that shows off his broad chest and ripped biceps AND gray sweatpants? GRAY FUCKING SWEATPANTS!

I might be terrified to fall in love again. And I very well know that I may not survive Evan. But I also know that I would regret it for the rest of my life if I didn’t give this a chance. Give us a chance.

“It’s you, Evan. It’s always been you,”

God, this woman has me by the balls. And I wouldn’t have it any other way.

It’s insane how badly I miss him. I didn’t know you could actually ache for a person.

“I’ve spent forever trying to figure out how to convince you to love me, and now you’re threatening me with your love. Ain’t that some good shit.”

there was never a doubt that it would be me and you. We were always destined to belong together, Amelia. I may have been your first crush, but you were always my forever.”