You Never Forget Your First: And He Just Might Be the Death of Me

by Millie Perez

he moves his hands to the back of my neck, letting his thumbs rub my jawline and cheek.

This move makes me weak

Whenever the show gets too scary, he distracts me by rubbing my feet. I know. Poor me.

Evan kisses me like a man who has waited a decade to do so. Because he has.

But before my knees buckle, he leans down further and grabs the back of my thighs and in one effortless swoop has my legs crossed behind his waist, pinning me to the wall, never breaking our kiss.

Strong man *heart eyes*

He grabs my ass with both hands and lowers me a few inches and I feel his—why. Hello there, we meet again, erection.

“Amelia, I need you to be a good girl and go to your room and close the door within the next ten seconds,”

Woof.

I hear a thunk right after, and I’m pretty sure it’s Evan banging his head against his door.

“Ay Dios mío se van a matar.”

Oh my god, they are going to kill each other.

“Sexual tension Evan!” I throw my hands in the air. “Welcome to my world Amelia, nice of you to finally catch up.” He chuckles.

We know how to bicker extremely well. I know how to sexually tease you from the safety of knowing that you would never actually touch me—” “Boy were you off on that one,” he mumbles.

I want you and you need time. And while I wait for you, I’m more than happy to supply as many earth shattering kisses as you require.”

“So, I’ve been thinking.” I take a deep breath. “I still don’t want to be in a relationship.” “Geez, that was anticlimactic.” Evan snickers,

And I’m no longer in the business of holding back my wants for my shoulds.

Old Amelia would have just tagged along with whatever you were doing and ignored what she really wanted to do. Which is cuddling up with a good book and some hot chocolate in your breakfast nook that overlooks the backyard.”

Although, I’m sure you’ll be leaving this cabin with my heart regardless.”

“You don’t have to say anything back. Actually, I forbid you to.”

“But when I’m ready, it’s you. If you’re willing to wait a while until I’m ready, you’re the person I want to be with, have dreamt of—”

“It’s you, Evan. It’s always been you,”

“Rule number one. Within these cabin walls, you are mine. You belong to me.”

“Rule number two. I am yours, and I belong to you.” “Within these cabin walls?” I try to finish from his previous rule. “No. Everywhere Amelia. I love you, so that means that I am yours, and I belong to you. When we have sex, I will be making love to you. Understood?”

“Amelia, I need you to shut up so I can fuck you now,” he says brushing his lips lightly like feathers against mine. “Oh. Wow. Ok, proceed,” I relent.

“Good morning, you sexual deviant,”

“Duped. Bamboozled. Hoodwinked. You name it. You could have warned a guy that he was about to have the best sex of his life. Multiple times in one night! You totally stole my thunder there for a bit. Thank God I have a huge cock.”

“Why are you giving me peas at nine AM?” I lift a quizzical brow. “It’s not for you, it’s for her.” His eyes drop to my nether regions with a grin. “Ice my baby up. You have the morning to recover before I go full caveman again. See you in a few hours.”

Fucking dead

“Um, I thought that Evan would have some fancy catering, not frozen peas.” “They’re not for eating Nikki.” I bite my lower lip to try to stretch out this moment for as long as possible, but I’m failing miserably. “They’re meant for my vagina. I’m trying to ice her back to health after the pounding Evan gave her last night.” Nikki goes wide eyed and silent. After a few moments I hear another woman’s voice. “Nikki, do you mind taking that call outside. We’ll continue the tour of the church while you’re out there, dear.”

And that is why no matter what happens with Evan, Nikki will always be my soulmate.

“Sebastián, Christine. It has not been a pleasure. You’re actually absolute shit people, and I hope to never make your acquaintance again. Especially you.” He nods to Sebastián.

I have a feeling I’m going to have a lot more than a bowl of noodles in my mouth by the end of tonight.

“There’s only one bagel sandwich here. What about your breakfast?” I hover over her closely. “Don’t worry babe, I fully intend to eat before we leave.”

SIRRRRR

“And since I don’t want to be murdered in my sleep by my beautiful Latina girlfriend, I thought it best that you come with me, even under the pretense of friendship, rather than have another woman on my arm for meaningless PR,”

“You’re getting real comfortable, throwing around that boyfriend/girlfriend title, huh.” I smile. “Quite the contrary. I only plan on keeping the title temporarily.”

“I plan on moving us up in the ranks, when the time permits. That is, of course, whenever you’re ready.”

“Shh. You don’t have to say anything yet Amelia. I’m serious. Don’t forget that I’ve had the luxury of time to work through my feelings for you. I don’t want you to feel rushed and say something, just for the sake of saying it. If and when … scratch that.” I lock eyes with her. “When, you confess your feelings for me, I want to know that they’re coming from your heart, and not some stupid timeline or societal expectation. I’d rather wait as long as it takes to make sure we get it right this time, okay?”

Shower cap sex. Awesome.

“Evan, this is the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me. The fact that you would even know that yellow tulips are my mother’s favorite flower just blows my mind.” My thumb caresses his hand as he stares into my eyes, still worried about whatever I’m going to say. “I am very much at a loss for words, except for five.” Evan’s face bunches up in confusion. “I love you, Evan Cooper.” I smile softly.

“If the downstairs are looking like the rest of you, then a waxing will be necessary. Are you trying to win Evan back or send him on a safari?”

flush to me. “I love you, Evan. I messed up, and I’m sorry. I came here to let you know that I’m ready.” She smiles tenderly. “I told you at the cabin that it would always be you. When I was ready, I would be choosing you. Well, that’s now baby. I’m ready for us, and everything that comes along with that—”

“And second, you need to look away once the dress gets loose enough because I’m pretty sure I look like a stuffed sausage under all this.”

“Mira Antonio. I’m going to let your initial reaction slide, because I know this is surprising. But I need you to pull your head out of your ass for a second and listen to what we’re fucking saying. We’re in love with each other. Do you know what that means? It means we make each other happy. If you give a shit about me or my happiness, then these feelings should matter more than whatever bro code that prohibits Evan from touching me,”

Although my dad really didn’t have to go into detail about the medical repercussions of having sexual intercourse before I’m fully healed. Thanks, Dad.

“We made a silly little pact a while ago, not sure if that rings a bell for you.” I laugh, but he continues. “And in that pact, we made a promise. Within these cabin walls, you are mine and I’m yours. I want our bedroom here to always remind us of the beginning, of the first time we allowed ourselves to love one another. Plus, it will guarantee that no matter what craziness we deal with on a daily basis, we can always come back to this room, where our only desire is to love one another.”

Aweeeeeeee

“Amelia, I have loved you for a very long time. And recently, my opportunity to love you forever was almost taken from me. I know that today is a somber day. A day in which we will always take a moment to grieve and remember your mother. But I also want today to be something else. The day you remember as the one where your mother gave me her blessing to marry you.”

“For Christ’s sake Amelia stop ogling the ring and tell the man yes already before I have to start performing CPR on the poor bastard,” Antonio teases from the couch. “Shit. Yes! Yes! Of course, a thousand times yes!” I yell.

“But there was never a doubt that it would be me and you. We were always destined to belong together, Amelia. I may have been your first crush, but you were always my forever.”