“I’m seeing a woman, no, women, in my dreams that are so vivid I almost think I am awake. Always crying, but not wailing. Their tears roll down their cheeks silently. They are dressed differently, I guess from different places and times. Sometimes I close my eyes to remember as much detail as possible to understand more. There is another phantomlike figure that hides in steam and shadow that tells me to harm myself, feeds the awful things I think about myself. I’m not sure if it is real or in my mind. I just want to feel free. Free from whatever is haunting me. I’ve ignored it too long. My
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