How do I tell her that my mind is a complete fucking mess and that I can’t figure out why I’m not more upset about the way things worked out, the way Hannah and I parted ways? I should be heartbroken, but more often than not, it isn’t even Hannah I’m thinking about—it’s Raven. I want to do right by her, and I don’t know how to do that. I don’t want to clip her wings, and I can’t bear to see her smile dim. The last thing I want to do is make her feel trapped in this marriage with me. I’m terrified that she’ll come to resent me for forcing her into this.
