When We Were

by Diana Elliot Graham

To anyone who thinks they need closure, it’s not found anywhere outside of yourself. To anyone who thinks they need control, I promise you already have it.

Ok so this book is going to wreck me I fear

The peace that comes from being content? That’s always been harder to find, let alone accept.

Here’s to honor. To having honor, to getting on her, and if you can’t come in her, come on her.”

Classic

“I’ve asked myself that a lot lately, and I think we both just leaned into our worst traits. I let my mind get the better of me, let myself get swept away in dangerous expectations and thoughts, and you let the hard lines you draw keep you square in a box.

I replaced the empty memory with this one. This one, where I decide who has access to me. Confidence and cockiness are not consent.

But just because you don’t want to hold on to something anymore, doesn’t mean letting it go is easier.

You can love a memory without loving the person. And as I look at him, I know that the love we have for each other in this moment is that.

And regardless of all the alternative paths I could have taken, there is no path I walked in this life that I wouldn’t want to lead me to him. To the life we have now, and especially to the one that will arrive in another few months.

And it’s not in mourning, but acknowledgement that some houses, no matter how beautiful, only have blueprints.