Loving James was terrifying. It was danger and shame and the constant anxiety of discovery or abandonment. What he feels for Eli is still scary. But a different kind. A kind that might be worth it. He and James were bad for each other. Something it took him nearly four months of therapy to realize and another two to say out loud. The problem is he thinks he and Eli could be good for each other. Really good. Under different circumstances. In a different life. Or maybe, if he was just a little braver, in this one.
