Not that I’m contemplating suicide. This banister is wide and not very long. I can do it. Just one time, for old times’ sake. Grace’s voice is throaty and tempting in my head. Even beyond the grave, she entices me to do the wrong thing. Glancing behind my shoulder, I make sure the coast is clear. It’s just me outside. I hop on the banister, righting myself until I stand up straight across the surface. I don’t look down. The first step is solid. The second makes me feel alive. I spread my arms in the air, like Grace and I used to do when we were kids. I close my eyes. “Time me,” I mouth. And I
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