thought about whether this confidence was because I believed being thin might lead to better health, but I don’t think that’s it; it’s because I feel more in control. I hate thinking I’m getting ugly, or not wearing what I want. Which is why I become obsessed with my weight. The social gaze is so insidious, and despite any escape being impossible, I want to escape it. But I don’t want to deliberately become fat, either. I don’t know why an individual has to be treated as less-than and strive to fit society’s standards when it’s the people who denigrate others who are the real problem. That
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relatable re: body image
