I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

by Baek Se-hee

you tend to regard yourself as being worse off than you are (sometimes known as ‘faking bad’,

there’s really no end to worrying once you set your mind to it.

You have this superego that exerts control over you, a superego built not only from your own experiences but cobbled together from all sorts of things that you admire, creating an idealised version of yourself. But that idealised version of yourself is, in the end, only an ideal. It’s not who you actually are. You keep failing to meet that ideal in the real world, and then you punish yourself.

Because when your life satisfaction falls, it’s natural to retreat into primitive measures. And eating and sleeping happen to be our most instinctive base measures. But the satisfaction from eating doesn’t last very long. Exercise or outside projects can help here. Setting some type of long-term goal, in other words.

own my own life.

‘The important thing here isn’t whether you are being loved, it’s how you will accept the love that comes your way.’