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“Earned It”—The Weeknd
😏
The irony that I also taught her to fuck and ended up hurting her way worse than any of those boys is not lost on me.
This better grovel 😳
COVID-19
Fuck you covid 😤😤
The look on her face still haunts me when I told her the news that I was leaving and that it would be best to use this as the ending point of our relationship.
Noooo💔💔💔😢😢
“I do think time and some worldly experience will give you some perspective, baby.”
He still called her baby 🥺
“You don’t want this.” She moves into my arms and wraps hers around me. “I know you love me.” “I do,” I tell her honestly. I wasn’t about to lie to her after all we’d been through and I wasn’t about to let her think that this wasn’t going to be hard on me as well. “I do love you. But sometimes, love isn’t enough. Sometimes loving someone means letting them go.”
😭😭😭
Of course, it wasn’t a huge deal to anyone with there being only a nine-year age difference between them versus mine and Whitney’s over twenty year difference.
20 years 😳😳😳😳
About an hour after I’d arrived, I hear the front door open and the sound of heels against the hardwood floors of the foyer. I smile, preparing for Whitney to make her entrance and I stand to give her a hug.
Oof man doesn’t know what’s coming
“You… you just look so grown up.” I try my best to come up with something more eloquent but the words get caught in my throat. I’m struggling to find words other than: “Where did those come from?” as I point at her chest.
Bruh 😂
“Hi Jacob.” He cocks his head to the side and narrows his eyes and I can almost hear his thoughts. Jacob, huh? So that’s how we’re playing it? “Hi beautiful,” he responds, and after three years of not hearing his voice, I almost melt at just those two words.
“Hi, beautiful” *swoons* HOW DARE HE
“Parker is great. You’ll really like him.” “I wouldn’t go that far.” My smile fades as he holds out his hand. “Let me see the ring.”
😏 he’s not gonna like the ring
“Yeah, you’re fucked. He looks like a man that came here to play zero games.”
I stare at her through the blinds, my hands flexing into fists with the need to touch her. Her hair is longer than the last time I saw her and visions of seeing it wrapped around my wrist as I pound into her from behind infiltrate my brain.
😳
“Some older than others,” Chloe murmurs, and I give her a deadpanned look over her obvious dig at my age.
Chloe my girl 😂😂
“Yes, Mason. I am insane. I let the woman I love slip right through my fingers. I want her back and I want her back now.”
“I just… I thought I’d have more time.” “More time for what?” I whisper. “For a second chance with you.”
🥲
“You think I give a fuck? You could be married with three kids, and you’d still belong to me.”
Oh my god 😳
“I’ve never even come remotely close to doing anything inappropriate when he’s cheated on me!”
WHAT
“You never cheated on me,” she says quietly. “To my knowledge, you never so much as looked at another woman. I was always the only woman you saw.” “You still are.”
“I never had that much power over you,” she interrupts and I frown at her. Is she serious? When we were together, all she had to do was look at me and I’d do anything for her. “What world are you living in? Yes, you did.”
“I love you.” Her eyes widen and I shrug, laying all my cards out on the table once in for all. “I’ve always loved you. I’ve never stopped loving you. Don’t marry him.”
“Can’t say that I do. I went to three bachelor parties while we were together and I distinctly remember demanding nudes from you every four hours. So don’t hand me that drunk mistake bullshit because I could have been so drunk I didn’t remember my own name, but I damn sure always knew yours.”
okay WOW.
“Well, they could drop me off on the way, Chloe wouldn’t just leave me.” “I said I would take you,” he counters. “I just don’t want to inconvenience you.” “Doing something for you is never an inconvenience.” I melt and I try to hide the smile but he notices it and his lips turn up in what I assume to be triumph.
“I never agreed to play fair. Another man asked you to marry him. As far as I’m concerned, he declared war on me first. And you know what they say about love and war.”
I’m sorry but how does man say all the perfect things 🫠🫠🫠
“What? Miche, come on. And Whit, don’t act like you don’t know we feel that way. JP, wait till you meet this guy, he’s just so… not like us.”
I want Jacob and Parker to meet so bad 😭😭
“Whitney, I haven’t slept with anyone.” My head cocks to the side. “What do you mean?” “While we’ve been apart, I haven’t been with anyone else,” he says just before his lips form a straight line. “You’re the last woman I’ve slept with.”
….WOW
“You are literally McDreamy and McSteamy personified and you haven’t had sex in THREE years!? I had sex with myself last night just thinking about you!”
That’s the perfect way to describe him lmaoooo
The Weeknd play through my speakers.
😍😍😍 yes my favorite artist
“Come for me, Whitney,” I tell her and when I look up at her, I catch her gaze and see the look in her eyes. “Come for daddy.”
STOP 😳😳😳😳
“Apparently Parker got into a car accident in New York. He’s alive and evidently going to make it, but he’s banged up and he had to go into emergency surgery.”
NO you gotta be joking 😭😭😭😭 this is the worst possible timing EVER
“He touched my woman. Fucked my woman. And had the nerve to ask her to marry him.” He closes the distance between us and pulls me into his arms. “He’s the worst.”
“The guy outside my house? He’s family too?” Something about the way he says family has me on alert. Don’t jump to conclusions. “Excuse me?”
I mean she calls him daddy 😳
Something potentially resembling hurt crosses his face before it turns hard. “I’m just looking forward to meeting this guy that’s obviously so important to my fiancée.”
I can’t either bitch. Literally I am so excited for them to met 😂😂
“No, considering what the two of you were doing last night, she definitely shouldn’t marry him.” He takes a bite of pasta salad and continues through a mouthful of food. “So, you’re going to tell them now? Can I watch?” he jokes and I glare at him.
LMAOOO
“One sec, Kev,” I tell him as I step outside and close the door behind me. “Talk to me baby, you okay?”
UGH HES SO PERFECT WTFFF. They way he stops and does anything for her
“What I feel for you is deeper than love, Whitney.” Oh. He lies on his back and stares at the ceiling. “Devotion. Obsession.” He sighs. “Telling you I love you doesn’t seem to feel enough. The fact that I feel so out of control with need for you when I know I shouldn’t. I know it’s going to cause a catastrophic response and yet I don’t fucking care.” He turns his head toward me. “I just want you. I need you. I feel you underneath my skin every second. I felt you in every painful beat of my heart when we were apart.” I remember feeling something similar.
He snorts and leans back again. “First of all, you do spit but that doesn’t mean you aren’t a lady. If I recall, you do all kinds of unladylike things in the bedroom with me. Or I’m sorry, maybe it’s considered ladylike to rim your Godfather in your parent’s bed.”
Holy fucking shit bitch holy shit- the way my jaw just dropped
JP was kinky. Beyond. And it opened me up to so many things in the bedroom. JP and I had explored ass play several times on both sides and the space between my legs thumps painfully at the thought of fucking him again.
HOLY SHIT YALLLLL
“You want to fuck my ass?” He shrugs. “Fine, you can when you move in.”
🥵👁👄👁
“Where do you see yourself in five years?” She’s seated between my legs as she reads a book on her kindle that I know will have her riding my dick within the hour.
She’s reading a smutty taboo book too???
“Explain what? How you’ve been playing me for a fool this whole time? How long have you been fucking him behind my back?” He puts a hand up before I can speak. “You know what? I don’t want to fucking know. I can’t even believe you. Everyone was right, you really aren’t worth shit.”
Fuck you bro
“Bathroom, I think,” she says without pulling her gaze away from what I think to be Grey’s Anatomy. I chuckle, remembering all the times Whitney would ask me if things were accurate when she’d make me watch it with her.
That’s so cute 😂😂😂
He gets out of the car, putting up the umbrella even though we are only twenty or so feet from my house and opens the door for me, holding the umbrella over my head.
😭😭😭😭😭
“No. The time to talk to me would have been before you were cheating on me, with whom I assume to be this guy.” He points at Jacob and my eyes widen and a hand goes to my chest as it feels like my heart might just fly out of it.
HOLY FUCKING SHIT. if he wasn’t on crutches right now I would have punched him
“Yeah, Dad… let’s just take a second. Take some deep breaths,” Mason interjects and I see the moment in my father’s eyes when he realizes that Mason saying something means there’s some truth to what Parker said.
I AM SO SCARED
but I can’t even be bothered to care because my father has stormed past me and has Jacob by the throat against the wall.
NOOOO 😭😭😭😭😭
Coughs escape Jacob’s throat as he rubs his neck and no more than a second later, my mother’s hand comes flying through the air and slaps him hard against the cheek.
Is that really necessary like come on 🙄
“How fucking long and don’t you dare fucking lie to me, Whitney?” Jacob presses off the wall and gets in front of me. Jacob and my father are about the same height so they’re now staring at each other eye to eye. “Do not use that tone with her. I let you do that bullshit choking move but you and I both know I let that happen. Do not push me.”
This man 🧎♀️🧎♀️🧎♀️🧎♀️
“And this… whole time?” My mother asks. Her eyes are narrowed as if to say how did you hide this from us for so long? “No. No. He left. He went to Mexico, and we broke up. He said we couldn’t be together because of you two.” The tears have started flying down my face rapidly. “It crushed me.” I let out a shaky breath. “He chose you two over me and it crushed me!” I scream.
💔💔💔💔
“And you, Whitney. I can’t imagine you’re going to leave him now so I don’t know what kind of relationship this allows you and I to have.” My heart thumps painfully as a flash of a life without my father appears in front of me. “You’re my daughter and I will always love you, and I’ll always be there if you need me but I don’t support this and I won’t be around… this.” He says pointing at us.
Wow that’s really sad
