Poems for the Signs

by Michaela Angemeer

are you in love or are you just scared of being alone

i know we know this is better for both of us i know no love was lost and trees can’t grow when they’re planted so close but sometimes it’s sad to lose your person sometimes it’s sad to be alone

it took me twenty-seven years to learn how to lie i thought honesty was a natural inclination for everyone i know that’s sweet i love the person i used to be but unfortunately i also loved a lot of liars who knew the lies that would work on me

i don’t wanna be with anybody who weaponizes my vulnerability saves it in a wooden box loads it in a shotgun when i least expect it

one day, i promise there will be someone you can let in who will keep you safe once they're inside

i thought i would always love you but while i was standing in the sun you kept looking for shade the more i nourished the more you withered i tried to make us last longer emptied my cup to fill up yours until i learned that there’s no point in watering something that doesn’t want to grow

you may never let go completely but you will move on

you can understand where someone is coming from and still not accept how they treat you

i am not a good person or a bad person my morality will never be black and white my soul is a rainbow you can make a million colours from it and all of them are beautiful

sometimes the best thing you can do for the people you love is take care of yourself

you are not too much. you are brilliant. remarkable. you fill up rooms with love. you are joy. you are sunlight. you put more stars in the sky. your laugh makes the earth a better place. every day the world tells you to hide. but you say no. your soul was put here to take up as much space as possible. and there is room for you to be even more.

i am done with maybe loves love is not for maybes romeo didn’t drink half the poison juliet plunged the sword all the way in it’s time for full-fledged love i deserve something definite

you are allowed to be your full self. do not dim your light or change your identity for anyone. the weird parts of you, the things you feel shame around. they are beautiful and they are meant to be seen. the right people will find you. the right people will see your bravery. the right people will look at all the parts of you that you weren't sure about, and they'll adore them. pretending to be someone else will only make you feel empty. you deserve to be loved for who you are. there are so many blessings looking for you. and the only way they can find you is if you start to live your life for you.

you can only help others if you help yourself first

whatever you're willing to give there will always be someone there to take and they will take take take until all you're left with is resentment

i am becoming who i am meant to be. who i truly am. i am returning to the original version of self. the version that loves openly without judgment. the version that never heard the harsh words of the world. the version that doesn’t hide. in this chapter i am my most authentic being. my voice is brave and loud. i see things clearly without fear or worry. i am truly me.

i’ve been hurt by everyone who was supposed to love me unconditionally no wonder this heart is cracked no wonder i keep cutting myself trying to pick up all the pieces

if you keep falling in love with half-baked people you will keep feeling the pain of being loved with half a heart

i held on to my washing machine spinning uncontrollably closed my eyes and asked if i could skip ahead two years it’s not that i don’t want to live it’s that i don’t want to live right now i want to see the next part so i know this part is worth it