Reverse (The Bittersweet Symphony Duet, #2)

by Kate Stewart

“Maybe you fuck him for the first time tonight, and while you do, you think of me the whole time. You’ll smile as he pulls out and make your way to the bathroom, feeling sick because you believed for a few minutes you could do it, you could escape me. While you scrub his cum from your body, maybe you resign yourself and entertain his idea of what you could be like as a couple because you need something, anything. So, you’ll play along because you don’t have a choice. Months will go by as you drown in delusion. Maybe you’ll adopt a puppy together and pose for the cameras to keep it going. They love you together, so you should too. Eventually, he’ll get down on one knee, and you’ll say yes because you feel obligated to, and you’ll think to yourself, ‘Why not?’ because you’ve come this far. You’ll plan an elaborate wedding and invite everyone who knows you to watch you lie your way through ‘I do,’ remembering the first time you said it and actually fucking meant it—but you threw that husband away. Before you know it, you’re making little superheroes to fill the void and later crying your way through the carpool, realizing you’re not living the life you wanted. The worst part? You won’t be confused as to why you’re empty. You’ll know why the whole time.”