don’t know where the line of deception and deceit meets loyalty and faithfulness, but I never pretended to know how a relationship worked. With Nate, I learned daily how to be with someone I cared about, but that doesn’t mean I knew how to act in a moment of panic and tested trust. I didn’t know that meant that staying and fighting, demanding to understand, was what I was supposed to do. I was so used to the fallout; I didn’t know reconciliation was even an option. All I knew was bad shit happened and you dealt with it. My newfound emotions got the best of me, so I shut that shit down, made a
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