Finding Daisies

by Jessica Jocelyn

I wove her fire and his lies into my being, and there I was, designed with a heart already broken.

I fear one day the responsibility will become too great and my time to turn to dust will come sooner than promised. until then, I am here.

Jesus forgives you, mija she softly said as she stroked my head. I blinked I forgive Him, as well.

I feel I may have reached a point where I became the very monster I spent my life trying to destroy.

my path was never easy and things happened to me that I never deserved. I tried to fight hard against them and never accept it but the hard truth is that they happened- they are a part of me a part of my story and in between the hardest chapters to read are beautiful moments amazing things and no amount of tragedy can take that from me.

I am the result of people not loving me who were supposed to. but once I understood that it had nothing to do with me and everything to do with their incapacity to do so, I broke free and lived on.