What word is stronger than regret? Like regret but with teeth. Acid. Boiling oil. Maybe terror describes it better. I can’t get fat. Fat is beautiful. Yumi Nu is beautiful. Ashley Graham. Precious Lee. So beautiful. I know this. But I can’t get fat. Existing is too dangerous as it is. The leers. The contempt. I’m worth nothing now. I can’t be worth even less.
