Controlled Chaos (Love & Lyrics #1)

by Nikki Ash

at some point in the past year, I fell in love with Layla. I’ve waited for the day I can finally tell her and hopefully make her mine.

“It’s a charity event, and I don’t care if I show up naked. Nothing I wear should send any message to any man, drunk or not.

“For the record, your mom isn’t the only one who missed you, Shutterbug. I’ve missed you too.”

“I let you go once, but I can’t do it again without telling you how I feel. I’m in love with you.

“You don’t need to know anything right now except that I’ll be waiting for you to be ready, and once you are, I want my chance with you.”

And if I couldn’t keep them satisfied and only wanting me, how the hell would I ever keep a man like Camden satisfied? He’s a rock star, for God’s sake. He has beautiful women throwing themselves at him every damn day. What do I possibly have to offer him that he can’t get from all those other women?”

“If I had you, I know I’d never look outside. Them fucking blinds would stay closed.” He smirks, and I find myself laughing. “You’re beautiful and smart and sexy as fuck, and if I’m ever lucky enough to get you inside my four walls, I will prove to you every damn day that you’re all I see… all I want. That there’s nothing worth looking outside for.

But just know that I’m here, no matter what. I fucked up when I walked away five years ago. I did what I had to at the time for Gage and Brax, and even myself, but I still fucked up. And to be given a second chance… I won’t fuck it up again. Even if it’s only as your friend.”

“This isn’t a one-time thing or just two friends reconnecting. I want you in every way that matters. I want all of your days and your nights. Your happiness and your sadness. I want your tears and your laughter. I want your body…and your heart.”