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after being boyfriend and girlfriend for a whole two years, I still blushed a little when he said things like that.
Okay longevity is understood on the jeremiah forefront but, Conrad? I mean maybe he just wasnt readyyyy
“I’m so jealous you got to hook up with him.”
Hello its time to crashout
“Belly, it was when we were on that break. When we were broken up.”
Made me think of that one friends guy... WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL
I went totally still. “We had sex.”
The way i audibly Gasped
A fight is like a fire. You think you have it under control, you think you can stop it whenever you want, but before you know it, it’s a living, breathing thing and there’s no controlling it and you were a fool to think you could.
Conrad was the one who was pre-med. Conrad was the one at Stanford, working a part-time job at a lab. Jeremiah was the one who told people he majored in beerology.
But just because you bury something, that doesn’t mean it stops existing.
Firsts were important. But I was pretty sure lasts were even more important.
At first I wasn’t sure I’d heard him right. But then he said it again, this time louder. “Marry me.”
The jump scare .
“You just want to erase what you did by marrying me.”
Thank you for not living in delusion Bells. Truly.
Then I held out my hand for him, and his eyes lit up. The joy I felt in that moment—I couldn’t even put it into words. His hand shook as he placed the ring on my finger.
Is this not the mark of all of becks doing? Does he not EXACTLY resemble HIS CRAP FATHER?!?!
That night I dreamed of Conrad.
Oh lord... Im in for a rollercoster huh?
Because I really did believe he was coming. If I didn’t, would I have taken extra care with my hair that morning? In the shower, would I have shaved my legs not once but twice, just to be safe? Would I have put on that new dress and worn those heels that made my feet hurt if I truly didn’t believe he was coming?
ALL THIS FOR CONRAD BUT NOT FOR YOUR FIANCE???
He was marrying my girl, and I couldn’t do anything about it. I just had to watch it happen, because he was my brother, because I promised. Take care of him, Connie. I’m counting on you.
There hadn’t been one specific moment. It was like gradually waking up. You go from being asleep to the space between dreaming and awake and then into consciousness. It’s a slow process, but when you’re awake, there’s no mistaking it. There was no mistaking that it had been love.
God, if I could, I’d go back to that moment and say all the right things, I’d tell her I loved her, I’d make it so that she never looked that way again.
“Just take care of her.”
For a man thats so self aware? WHY THE HECK AM I FEELING SO ENRAGEDDDD.
saw her eyes dim. I saw her love for me die. I’d killed it.
Im punching the air. Con get her out of this delusional dress up game with JEREMIAH
I would rather have had someone shoot me in the head with a nail gun, repeatedly, than have to watch the two of them cuddling on the couch together all night.
ME TOO CONNIE
“If a girl’s the one, all bets are off, family or no family.”
I felt lighter when I left Ernie’s house a couple of hours later. I always did.
I saw red. Under the tables, I clenched my fists. I wanted to hit something. First I wanted to hit these two guys, and then I wanted to go find my brother and beat the shit out of him.
ALL I THOUGHT WAS I SEE REDDD .REDDDD.REDDDDD
He called out, “I still love you.”
STAWP IT RN CONNIE
“I don’t know if I’ll ever get you out of my system, not completely. I have… this feeling. That you’ll always be there. Here.”
“I didn’t have it in me to love you the way you deserved. But I knew who did. Jere. He loved you. If I kept you with me, I was going to hurt you somehow. I knew it. I couldn’t have it. So I let you go.”
CONRAD DUDE IM GASPING FOR AIR FOR YOU RN
“I see you again, and everything I planned goes to shit. It’s impossible.… I love Jere more than anybody. He’s my brother, my family. I hate myself for doing this. But when I see you two together, I hate him too.” His voice broke. “Don’t marry him. Don’t be with him. Be with me.”
So maybe Ernie did work his magic
“I still love you. I never stopped. I think you know it. I think you’ve known it all along.”
“Do you remember infinity?”
YES CONNIE GET HER FROM JERE
“I need you to know that no matter what happens, it was worth it to me. Being with you, loving you. It was all worth it.”
So no, he didn’t give me flowers or candy. He gave me the moon and the stars. Infinity.
There are moments in every girl’s life that are bigger than we know at the time. When you look back, you say, That was one of those life-changing, fork-in-the-road moments and I didn’t even see it coming. I had no idea. And then there are the moments that you know are big. That whatever you do next, there will be an impact. Your life could go in one of two directions. Do or die.
This is our start. This is the moment it becomes real. We are married. We are infinite. Me and Conrad. The first boy I ever slow danced with, ever cried over. Ever loved.
