healing for no one but me

by Jennae Cecelia

the past is not here to haunt it is here to remind me that i made it through the times i thought i never would escape.

but i am also the woman that sees art everywhere she goes. my pen always ready to write a story. i will remember the details about you that no one else knows. that is more important, for me.

i think it is ok to be a little bit selfish. you do not have to share your hopes and dreams. you do not have to share where you plan to go or what you want to see. it is ok to trust your gut and protect your heart. it is ok to be a little selfish. it is your life. do not forget that part.

you go ahead and take up the space. you go ahead and dance in the rain. you go ahead and talk as loud as you want. you go ahead and share your dreams. you go ahead and run down the empty streets. you deserve to be seen here. you do not need to hide, or be quiet, or keep your dreams to yourself. unless you want to- that is different. but do not be afraid of owning your life here. you are just as important as everyone else.

it is much more fulfilling to create something brand new, than copy and paste what others do.

not everyone is going to be able to see your vision. we do not all see the world through eyes with the same prescription. it is ok to be the only one rooting for your decision.

but maybe what my mind and body are telling me is that i need a balance of these things. to honor the moments i want to be alone and also when i want to be loud and seen. to be more intentional but also be open to what adventure brings.

do not make yourself feel like you did not do enough. mental health is a journey and can make life rough.”

and if you showed up knocking at your own door looking on at the person you were once before, would you close it or welcome yourself in? maybe this your chance to give yourself the forgivenss you never did get.