You'll Come Back to Yourself

by Michaela Angemeer

i have been let down by men so many times there is no disappointment left for you

don’t plant seeds of commitment in my mind if you never intend to water them

i tried so hard to be whole for you but it turns out you like me better when i’m in pieces

i knew everything about who i wanted you to be and nothing about who you really were

since you left i got worse at parallel parking but i can drink coffee black without making a face i learned that it’s possible to not kill plants and that i look best in the mornings wearing olive green i’ve figured out how to ask for what i want to yell when i’m being talked over that i can make people feel things they’ve been ignoring just by being honest if i’m being honest i still let myself think of you once a day and i will keep asking even if you never hear me can you let go of someone without forgetting how they made you feel?

No sé, pero lo siento mucho

i am so sorry to disappoint but you will not find what you’re looking for here

when he says that he’s scared of hurting you it’s not empathy, it’s a warning

i thought i would have a lifetime to be in love with you it ended in a second

i’m sorry you were afraid of my kind of love

your roots will always show you the importance of holding on to what grounds you but don’t ignore the lessons the leaves are trying to teach you

but the great loves are not the only ones that help you grow. the little loves teach us how to love without expectation. the little loves teach us how to live a life filled with the love we deserve.

you make me feel like myself times infinity

it’s just you, me, and blue morning light

i can’t explain where all my love for you came from it’s as if we once raised a child baby fingers gripping pinkies or died together on a bed of dandelions it’s as if i were the moon and you were the sun always convincing each other the next day was worth rising for and when i was too caught up in being the ocean you never forgot to remind me what your earth felt like i don’t know if we’ll finally collide in this century but i am certain i have loved you in more than a thousand different lifetimes

you can have all of me or nothing at all choose

feelings are not facts

if he’s afraid to fully fall in love with you save your time and love yourself instead

when will i learn that no man needs to consume a part of me and i have more to offer than just flesh

not everyone deserves to hold your heart in their hands

you don’t have to ignore all the things that you’re sad about

maybe i like boys with broad shoulders and thick necks maybe i like girls with long eyelashes and upturned noses but mostly maybe i just like people with warm hands loud laughs and good hearts

this is the end of the weeping. the breaking. the cracking myself in two. if i give away any more pieces i will cease to exist. this is my promise. i will be stronger this time