Someone Else's Bucket List

by Amy T. Matthews

Chemo had taught Bree that fear was an emotional black hole. It had gravity so dense it not only pulled you in, it pulled you inside out. It was best to avoid it. To deny it. To chart a course in the opposite direction.

Until Bree got sick, Jodie hadn’t realized how painful love was. It stung. Like lemon juice poured on an open wound. But worse. It wasn’t pink and pleasant; it was bloodred and visceral. Fearful.

Grief was like weather: it had seasons and moods, and it could always take a turn for the worse. Today had started with lowering clouds of gloom and the rainy smell of despair; there had been razor-sharp, heart-hurting cold; then a bitter wind had blown in, churning the flat gray sky into a stormy sea of misery; and now there was driving, sheeting, pelleting sleet. The kind that flayed the skin off your bones.