For so long, I’ve hated my monsters. I’ve blamed them for the pain I’ve felt, the mistakes I’ve made, the times I’ve hurt the people I love. I’ve always thought that it was because of them that I couldn’t be with Auden. But that’s not true. It’s not my condition that was the problem, but how I dealt with it. Having depression didn’t make me any less deserving of Auden’s love, but the way I treated him did. I know that now.
