It was as though sitting with the pit in my chest transformed it into a well, and once I saw it, I could trust I already had all I needed. I was finishing a book about our union with Christ in suffering, and by acknowledging that Christ was holding me together and filling me when it seemed like everything had fallen apart, I grew more resilient and radiant with joy. Every day, I watched as God drew up words and peace and energy from deep within my soul.