The truth is that I wish I had anorexia, not bulimia. I’m pining for anorexia. I’ve grown humiliated by bulimia, which I used to think of as the best of both worlds—eat what you want, throw it all up, stay thin. But now it doesn’t feel like the best of both worlds. It feels terrible.
I completely empathize with this train of thought. When I had started "focusing" more on bulimia, I often wished that I had just "stuck" with anorexia. It took me a really long time to grow past these intrusive thoughts and eventually recover fully from both.
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