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There's something about him. Something that seems almost fragile.
He’s the most beautiful guy I’ve ever seen in real life, and I hate it.
Everything started in a bus, didn’t it? Buses ruined my life and then this bus drove me up here where I’m supposed to fix it.
I want to feel better. Maybe in the daytime… Everything is always better when the sun is up.
I give him a fucked-up grin. "It looks like I'm pretty good at blow jobs."
"This was gay as fuck. I hope you’re happy. Go wash all this jizz off you."
Fucks sakw
“Never jump,”
“Never fall.”
"I knew if you touched me one more time, I would do this." And then he steps in closer, wraps a hand around the back of my head, and kisses me so hard and deep I nearly slide to the ground.
His mouth didn’t feel like any memory,
Welcome to the world, mofo. It hurts a lot, and dying slowly seems to be our fucking job here.”
“Do you know how much I fucking love it when you look at me that way?”
Nothing matters but him—being in this moment with him. At least until I can’t anymore.
Thinking of another room. Another patient. How the needle always seemed to burn.
I like how he kisses me. Like I’m the only thing he needs in the world.
“Because…I’m scared of doctors.”
"I'd want anything you gave me, Miller."
“You’re my guy now. I’ve got you.”
I want so much to say I love him back, but no one’s ever really said “I love you” to me.
Aww baby
Hi, no one’s held my hand since I was like six. No one’s touched me in a few years except nurses and a lot worse. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Babyyy
This perfect boy is all mine.
“You’re such a prize. You know that?”
“Right now, all that’s real is you and me. And we’re here together.”
“My Miller,” he whispers.
“She thought I was gay. She didn’t want that. So, she sent me to…this boarding school.” He blows a breath out. “It…wasn’t a good experience.”
Fuck i knew it
“That’s why I hated you, you know,” he whispers, looking down into my eyes. “Too perfect. Tempting. Something that I couldn’t have. And shouldn’t want.”
“I want to say...I’m really sorry for what happened to you. At both of those places. I’m sorry you were alone. I know it’s stupid, but I really wish I could’ve been with you.”
“It’s not stupid,” he rasps. “That’s the nicest thing anybody’s ever told me.”
Babyy
I just want to tell you that I’m happier than I deserve. And that I love him. I hope it will last.
When Dad called her to tell her I’m gay and they should support me and be proud, he didn’t know what trouble it would kick off.
Oh no i know he tried to do the right thing but oh no
She called and told me if I don’t come back to Sheppard Pratt and get back on psych meds to “control those urges”- she’ll tell the police…this secret I have. It’s a secret nobody can ever know. Not even you.
Love me- okay? Can you please still love me? Even if it’s been a while? I’ll always love you too.
He didn't leave the football pillow that I made him.
Mom told me Carl was a dickwad and when he found out I’m gay, he called her up and told her that I had to go.
BITCH
It’s a little black infinity symbol, but the weird thing is, it’s not symmetrical. Looks like someone drew it on there with a pen or some shit—but it’s permanent ink.
I have dreams now. When I do, there’s someone holding me. A guy. I can’t ever see his face.
Maybe we were friends, and maybe I’m remembering. But I can't ask him.
Ugh baby
"Anyway, I was locked inside there for thirty-four days."
Omg
He would try to make me eat. I couldn't lift my arm, though. Every time he gave me food, I couldn't eat it, and he'd shock me. With this shock stick.
Fucking hell i feel so bad for him... Everythibg he wennt through
It's like a desert...and these are little drops of water. Condensation rolling off a plant and hitting cracked dirt. But I'll take it.
I'll take it. I'll hold it in my heart like a thorn and let it poison me. Even though the poison pain hurts so much, I'm becoming a drunk just to be able to breathe.
He was mine. He loved me! MILLER! I didn't goddamn dream it. I really wasn’t crazy.
And then…go off somewhere. You know…somewhere to change that. To un-gay me,”
And what they mostly did was try to turn my dick straight.”
Makes me sick
“If you could fuck, then you were cured. Cause everybody knows to be a functional adult, you need to keep your dick hard for sex with someone you don’t actually want, right?”
Fucking hell
“I would have come,” Josh says.
“He pulled my pants down, and he tried to get his dick into me.”
Of course he fucking did
“I didn’t mean to mess you up, too.”
