Baby’s sexual force was a cascade of trueness that humbled me. We respected the wild other lives we led beyond the enormous angles of care we cast for each other. Still, this hurt. We agreed early on that we wouldn’t carry on full romantic relationships outside each other. Sex was sex, though, and we knew it could happen. We promised to tell each other everything or include each other. The moment sex was secret, we had actually cheated. More and more, I knew the arrangement couldn’t hold for much longer. I
