If There's a Way (Lost Boys #2)

by Jessie Walker

For those who did.

The sun is gone but I have a light. KURT COBAIN

“My burden is loving you, but not letting myself have you, because I’m fucking petrified nothing will ever be enough to keep you. And I can’t live with that. I literally cannot live with the idea of losing you, Waylon.

Even the sun needs a break sometimes—it’s why it has the moon to help out every night.”

“God, you’ve ruined everything, City Boy. You’ve ruined me.” I rock my head against his, not once taking my tear-filled gaze off his. “Every time I look at you, I’m ruined.”

“I told you,” he says deeply. “So long as I have the will to live…” I swallow hard, fingers digging into his skin, and I murmur against his lips. “There’ll always be a way.” I’ll find it. Always. I’ll always find… Him.

“It’s not your job to love who brought you into this world unconditionally. It’s the other way around. You don’t owe me anything.”

“At the end of the day,” Mason goes on after a long moment, “you’re dating someone who makes you happy, right?” Still not looking at him, I nod. “Okay, and this someone just happens to be a dude. What does it matter if you’re gay or not? Maybe he’s just the exception. Maybe he’s not. Still… it’s no one’s business but yours.”

“I feel bad for those who never find what we have. But I feel even worse for those who do and never let themselves love as much as I love you.”