When We Were Friends

by Holly Bourne

Our whole relationship had been such a roller coaster of waiting to be chosen, of being the person onstage auditioning, that I’d not really considered if I wanted the part now that I was being offered it. But, after a week or two of mental processing, I fell in love with Ben in a different way.

I was finally myself in love, rather than the darkest parts of myself wanting to be loved...

How I’ve wasted so much time and stress on the love of men, when my relationships with them will never be able to be like this because they’ll never be able to understand. I reflect on how, the only times I felt myself, and safe, and safe to be myself, was when it was just us. With women. With Jessica.