“I think . . . my default is to be distrustful and fearful and to be in a state of . . . bleh. And that bleh-ness ranges from being very depressed to walking around in a sort of dissociated state. It gets in the way of things like, you know, sitting in a meeting where I’m supposed to—it’s . . .” I sighed. “It still feels like a constant barrage of doubts and beliefs that everyone hates me.”
