I can’t take back my lack of faith or get us back the years that it cost us. I can’t undo the pain it caused both of us. I can’t make any of it right, and I didn’t realize until after he was gone that he never asked me to. He was angry and hurt that I didn’t trust him, but he never once demanded that I apologize for it because he understood where it came from. He understood me. The way he always has.