And now, with Three’s Company, I had a secret inside me, a romantic, fantastical vision that kept me afloat, and I cherished it so much that my spiritual survival seemed at stake. If other people came to know it, the depth of it, my end was assured. I could be killed by a skeptical eyebrow. Murdered with one look. Then I’d have to kill my body. But if I kept it to myself, I could inoculate myself against the death-urge forever. Only my own private obsession would save me. That is why I needed to resist love’s hostile invasion at every turn. With love comes attention, then judgment, then
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