“You want every girl.” “It’s not the same, Cara. Not with her.” It’s never really been about wanting so much as it’s been about satisfying an urge, slapping a temporary bandage over a void. Because the truth is, though I promised my mom I wouldn’t let a love like my parents’ get away, there’s a big part of me that not only expected to never find it, but didn’t want to either. When you love someone so wholly, it makes you weak. You risk pieces of yourself that you can’t afford to lose. With Olivia, the ache doesn’t feel so startlingly empty. I don’t know why, and the thought alone scares the
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