Notes on Heartbreak

by Annie Lord

Things don’t take as long as before to stop hurting. I come around to the idea of him and her together quickly. Perhaps because I watch a really cute video of two beavers, which makes me feel rather sentimental. Or perhaps, and more likely, because I realise I’m happy she’s getting all the things I stopped getting, or never got. Because I can tell she deserves it and because one woman’s happiness shouldn’t have to take away from another’s, even if it sometimes feels as though it does.

I think a lot of those desperate, I-can’t-live-without-you feelings for Joe came in part because you projected so much onto him that wasn’t really there. You were worshipping a man who didn’t exist. This could be more real. You’re meeting on equal terms.’