This lack of appetite should be a relief. It was tiring thinking about food as much as I did. A few times I tried to go back to how it was before the first diet when I would just eat when I was hungry and not eat when I wasn’t. It didn’t work. If I relaxed the rules I’d end up binge-eating and then after that guilt would make me go back on the diet again. I would dream of ways out of the cycle, be jealous of those I thought already had such an escape.
