Keep It in the Family

by John Marrs

To describe Finn and me as not in a great place is an understatement. We are so far removed from ‘great’ that we might as well be orbiting different planets. I don’t know if I still want to be married to him. If you’d asked me before Sonny was born whether I’d stay with a cheat, the answer would have been an absolute no. I didn’t do it with Ellis. But there’s no longer only me to think about. I have to put our child first. And because Finn is a far better parent than I am – it turns out he’s had an extra four years of practice with Chloe – Sonny needs at least one of us to have our shit together. I love my husband but I hate him in equal measure. How do I move past that?

‘I don’t recognise normal any more, but I’ve had to find a way to survive.