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“If you ever put her in danger again, I’ll kill you.”
All I know is that Sage is in the mood to hurt someone. So, if she wants to hurt someone, she can do that to me, not Silas. Never Silas.
“Hit me!” I yell in her face, full of toxic madness and pent-up emotions I haven’t fully dealt with. Things I’ve buried deep, deep down when we ended. They’re all being dug up, making me want to do the one thing I haven’t stopped thinking about since she came back. Ruining her. Breaking her.
“Fucking hit me!” The dam breaks. It’s
“You,” I bite out, hating the taste of that truth on my tongue. “You are what’s wrong with me. You being back here. You walking around campus, showing up at the cliff. You fucking existing.”
“You don’t get to do this. You are done,” I tell her, “You want to be sad? You want to mourn your sister? You do that, but you don’t get to wreak havoc on everyone else, Sage. You don’t get to hurt Silas or anyone because you’re angry and damaged. We lost her, too. We all lost her.”
“It would seem the only reason you won was because of a girl. Not only do you need your daddy to back you up, you now need ladies to fight your battles? If you’re going for the look of pathetic waste of space, you’re nailing it, Sinclair,”
They stand toe-to-toe. “If I find out you had something to do with Rose, Easton, I will make you beg on your knees for me to kill you.”
Tick, tick, boom.
It’s time for Easton to be punished. “What the fuck are you doing?” he shrieks high enough to break glass, trying to push me away, but my grip holds. “Making good on all those empty fucking threats.” I send my
He’ll wear that scar forever, a reminder of just how fucking foul he is below the surface. He’ll see it and know there are no more fucking empty threats. And just like that… The twitching stops.
“Glad to know you still know how to lie.” His voice makes me shiver. “Sorry, act.”
He pulls the blunt from his mouth, wetting his dry mouth with his tongue. “Nothing between us will ever be painless, Sage.” His eyes burn me. “But you could start by telling me who that was you were talking to before you came in here.”
“I bet you wanted out. Begged to escape, and when you couldn’t, you’d lie inside those four white walls, staring at the ceiling, fantasizing about all those times I was nine inches deep inside your cunt, didn’t you?”
“They like to see me in pain. So, they send me visions of you. They feed off my pain, baby. And they get stronger every single day I’m here without you. They are trying to get out.” He presses his hands into the sides of his head. “And I don’t know how to stop them anymore. So, I need you to come back, okay? Please, I just need you to come back. Baby, I need you to save me.”
I sat outside his door, feeling useless, just listening desperately for the sound of his breath. Anything that would tell me he was alive. I couldn’t take it anymore. I was standing out there waiting on him to die.
I would do it again, I would do it all over again for him because I’m not losing him, too. I’m keeping him. I’m keeping all of the boys. I had lost too many people that I cared about, and I’m not losing any more.
April twenty-ninth went from a normal day, usually sunny, mostly spent in school, a day that I would fly past and move forward from without a second thought, to being one I’ll never forget.
Today, the split in my soul aches a little harder. The nerves that had been severed throb for connection. My brain reminds me a little more persistently that the person I came into this world with is gone.
“So, listen,” Briar announces, rolling onto her stomach and popping a piece of chocolate into her mouth. “You don’t have to tell me, but I really gotta know. What’s up with you and Van Doren?”
“He doesn’t pay attention to things he doesn’t care about. Yet, every time you’re around each other, the only thing he can focus on is you.”
“God doesn’t talk to people who make deals with the devil,” I call out. “Don’t you know that?”
“The lowest, blackest, and farthest from Heaven,” I interrupt her, tightening my fingers so she’ll shut up. “That’s where traitors go. Did you know that? That’s where I’m going to fucking send you.”
“Go to hell. It doesn’t matter what I say, you wanna fuck me so bad it makes you look stupid,”
“I love being your dirty slut,” she whimpers. “I want you to fuck me, break me, use me.”
“So, you can fuck me, but you won’t trust me?” “Well, your cunt doesn’t lie to me. Your mouth does.”
“Cain did what?” I snap, furrowing my eyebrows, stepping the rest of the way there. I let my anger take the forefront, shadowing the ache in my chest for now. Not wanting to face what could be the truth. Not right now. It’s too much to take in at one time, and I’m not even sure I believe her. I never know what to believe from her. “That’s what you—” “Sage,” I grunt. “If you ever gave a shit about me, answer the fucking question. What did Cain do to you?” There is a numbness that settles on her face. Like she is separating her emotions from her mind in order to say it. “The man I told you
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“Cain has to go,” I say. “I want him dead.”
fueled by our emotions.” His dark eyes flicker towards me.
“Not fucking happening,” I growl. “She is not staying with you.”
“Don’t forget, Silas,” I hiss, “your girlfriend is not Sage, and she doesn’t need you to protect her.” “Yeah? Are you going to do it?”
And she is mine. “You fucking—” “Stop,”
“How long?” Alistair asks as he walks onto the patio, with Thatcher and Silas close behind. “Nine inches.” I pull the cigarette from my lips. “That’s hard. Do you need to know soft measurements, too, or…?”
it. “This means it’ll be my problem. I would take the fall if shit went south. I’ll protect you all from the blowback if there is any.”
“Si, I know—” “Do you love her?” he asks bluntly.
“I don’t know what it is I feel towards Sage.” Lightning strikes hard, shaking the ground. “But whatever it is, it’s mine.”
“Everything is hard. Waking up. Breathing.” He sighs. “Having you here isn’t hard. It’s the only easy thing in my life. Because I look at you and I know that a piece of her soul survived. That a part of her lives in you.”
“I won’t tell him,” I say. “You’re going to. I’ll give you a few days, Silas, but if you don’t tell him. I will.”
“I asked him to cut me because I needed to be punished for trusting you. For allowing myself to be weak.” “Rook, I don’t understand,”
“I never wanted to be,” he whispers. It’s quiet. For the first time in a long time.
“Let’s see, what else…Don’t do this, blah, blah. You don’t need to do this, blah—oh!” I tap his chest with the pliers. “What are you going to do to me? Good question, Cain. That’s my favorite.”
“I’m going kill you.” I look him straight in the eyes as I say it because even though he doesn’t deserve to go out like a man, I want him to see just how dark my soul is.
“He isn’t listening,” I grunt, taking one end of the irons and starting to wrap a figure eight around his crossed legs. “He has left you to deal with me now.” Once I’ve looped them around
“You better take your hands off her, Sinclair.” I know that voice. “Before you get the other side of your face melted off.” Rook.
He is my Lucifer, and it’s time for me to show him I could be his Lilith.
“Tell me what it is,” I say, “and it’s yours. It’s all yours, baby.”
She had been my greatest heartache. The one who had ripped a hole so deep inside of me that I never thought I’d be able to fill it. I’d gotten used to the hollow valley inside my soul. But she’s also my only salvation.
“All the sloppy noises for me?” I groan into her sex, my voice vibrating against her sensitive bud. “How fucking sweet of you, baby.”
I always know. Because I know my girl.
“I want you to fuck my ass.” Her blue eyes are filled with so much need that I can’t say no to her. “Please.”
