Does It Hurt?

by H.D. Carlton

“We’ll cross paths again, Sawyer. Life has a funny way of throwing people into your path when you’re meant to collide. It’s up to you to choose to make it permanent.”

“You’re going to ruin me, too. But unfortunately for you, that’s where I feel most at home.”

fck how much you make me enjoy

“My name and God’s don’t belong in the same sentence, bella,” he rasps, his voice as rough as the rock below us. “One is holy, and the other is depraved.”

come here

“Can you take me, bella ladra?”

beautiful thief

“I needed one more time with you,” he rasps. “Ancora una volta.”

once again

look at me

let’s go

it’s really beautiful

i’ll kill him

wtf is going on

“Oh God,” I cry, trying to keep my voice down but failing miserably. “Can you see him, baby? Ask him for forgiveness.” “Why?” I pant, another high-pitched moan nearly swallowing the word. “Because you worship me now.”

do you want to know what i see

“No more running, baby. I want him to come looking for you just so I can have the privilege of ending his life for touching what’s mine.”

“I wasn’t yours then. You didn’t even know me.” The pad of his thumb brushes across my cheek, but it’s far from loving. It feels like the placating touch of a killer right before he ends your life. “You were always destined to be mine,” he says.

i don’t know

she’s a damn liar

he’s driving me crazy, holy

If I’m the devil, she’s fucking Lilith.

“Fuck, I hate you, too, baby.”

“You will heal, Sawyer. And as long as you are with me, you will never have to cause pain again. But when you are between my teeth, I will make you bleed. I will make you hurt instead.”

“Why?” I whisper. “You couldn’t even say that you didn’t hate me.” “Non ti odio, Sawyer,” he says roughly. “I wanted to say it was the truth when you asked if I hated you, but I couldn’t lie, so I said nothing. And every time I laid eyes on you today, all I could think was that I never really did.”

“Choose to live, bella. Choose me.”

smile baby

my love, i will give you everything

he will die slowly

“Tu sei mia

you are mine

“È impossibile odiarti quando mi fai sentire così vivo,” I start, slipping two fingers past her lips and hooking them over her teeth, bringing her closer. “Ed è esattamente per questo che voglio odiarti. Prima di incontrare te ero un sonnambulo. Cazzo, non ero pronto a svegliarmi.

it’s impossible to hate you when you make me feel so alive

“È impossibile odiarti quando mi fai sentire così vivo,” I start, slipping two fingers past her lips and hooking them over her teeth, bringing her closer. “Ed è esattamente per questo che voglio odiarti. Prima di incontrare te ero un sonnambulo. Cazzo, non ero pronto a svegliarmi.

and that’s exactly why i wanted to hate you. before you i was a sleepwalker. fuck i wasn’t ready to wake up.

“Ho sbagliato a dirti che eri debole. Sei così incredibilmente coraggiosa, vorrei che lo vedessi anche tu

i was wrong to tell you your weak. you’re so incredibly brave. i wish you could see it too

“Ti penso ogni ora, ogni minuto, ogni dannato secondo. Non so che fare.”

i think of you every hour. every minute. every damn second. i don’t know what to do

the ocean was the only place i felt at home

“Era l’unica cosa che mi eccitava e dava pace. Hai rovinato anche questo. Sentirti su di me è meglio di immergersi nell’oceano. Neanche con questa rivelazione so che fare.”

"It was the only thing that excited me and gave me peace. You ruined that too. Feeling you on me is better than diving in the ocean. I don't know what to do with this revelation either."

fuck, how wet you are

“This is mine,” I proclaim. Then, I repeat it in Italian. “Questa è mia.”

“You will be mine until you draw your last breath, Sawyer. And it will be my hand holding you beneath the surface, introducing you to death.”

“Ma solo quando sono pronto a venire con te. Annegheremo insieme, bella ladra.”

"But only when I'm ready to come with you. We will drown together, beautiful thief."

“You’re a goddamn siren, and I’m the fool who would gladly drown just to get a taste of you. Starve, for all I care, bella, but I will be eating tonight, and the only thing I’m hungry for is you.”

not yet

If I’m the siren, then he must be Poseidon, an angry god who commands my body like it’s the ocean beneath his fingertips.

“Show me, bella,” he rasps. “Show me where you hurt so I know where to love you most.”

show me how to love you

“There’s a place in the ocean, so deep, where not a single point of light penetrates through it. And for so long, I’ve been trapped there, unable to breathe. When I met you, you lifted me out of that darkness, and it was the first time I came up for air. You’ve become my oxygen, bella ladra, and I can no longer breathe without you.”

it’s my favorite color over you

you’re so sweet. you’re a angel

i’d eat you