every supposedly useless day, every supposedly useless hour can still be valuable. It can be valuable thinking time, akin to putting savings away in the bank that will accrue and be there to withdraw when you’re ready. As July said, the “useless” days can be preparation: “You can’t do it today, you are just not smart enough, you have to accrue more time before you suddenly have the whole idea. That is how it is for me—it’s a whole lot of misery but these days I just think, well, great, another miserable day in the bank.”
