The First to Die at the End

by Adam Silvera

Freaking out about death every minute isn’t a good life, and yet, tons of people are freaking out about death every minute.

I know I don’t have all the time in the world, I feel it in my heart. I got to go live my firsts—maybe even lasts—while I can.

Freedom should be freeing, but that doesn’t mean it can’t be heartbreaking.

I’d rather be planets apart as long as she’s still breathing on the other side of the galaxy.

perspectives shift over time

It’s not fair how someone can do everything right and still be hurt because someone else does one thing wrong.

Just like a phoenix, she was reborn.

“I understand that the person who gets the Death-Cast call isn’t the only one dying. If you really hold someone in your heart, you die too.”

only for them to jump at the chance to let me know how they couldn’t catch a bus home, or weren’t allowed to play outside for a week. What am I supposed to say to that? I know what—I don’t care,

when time is so limited. It just shows that no matter what’s happening in your life, the world doesn’t only spin for you.

even in this real world where death can now be predicted, people still can’t fly,

It’s like my wheel is spinning out of control and I’m about to crash into an iceberg and drown.”

It’s hard to live when it feels like death is lurking around every corner.

I want to help heal your heart in every way possible. But only if you’re ready.”

people don’t have wings, and walking through life is how you get to be in it.

I’m told my heart is fine even though I feel dead inside.