What I Wish I Said To You

by Isaac Paredes

My heart, trapped in a cage For the hope that one day I’m allowed to say your name

The world around me, fading My words failing As I think of you I’m not sure what to say Or how to say the truth Deep down inside I so truly am in love with you But my words falter As I fall into my ways Drunk in love Blame my mother and father Oh no, I’m not enough for you to stay But you do… You always do anyways Maybe you think I’m better, That past the yelling and anger, You see my tears and fears too Maybe you know I’m most afraid of losing you

It’s not your fault That you were left shattered Into thousands of beautiful pieces Each, watching on as you pick them up alone... It’s not your fault For thinking you’re not enough But take a moment to look in the mirror And see the angel from up above See the smile that makes the earth spin The heart that makes my world glisten See the girl who deserves it all But wants nothing more Then love and someone to call I’ll cut my hands with you picking up the pieces Reforming that heart Remaking the creases Gently holding those velvet soft hands Until you see the beautiful angel I see

Until you realize you’re more than enough for me...

So take my hand through the next door I’ll gladly break my heart To fix yours

want to write you But a part of me just can’t write anymore Constantly barking up the same tree I’m slowly growing tired of being me Of seeing the world in monochrome While everyone bathes in newly found colors I’m Slightly tired of trying to talk To people too selfish to want Anything else in life but meaningless sex

Love feels like the one thing I cannot get That’s the one thing that seems to tease me Seems to always be just out of my grasp Love

You are your own enemy. Take a moment and look around See the faces that surround you. Look at the smiles and laughs The eyes too drunk to keep track Of the time that's slipping away. No one hates you like you do

So take a moment and hug the ones you love Find a reason to take a break from the run Face the demons hanging around Make a few friends, learn to not drown. Take it from someone who’s felt the dark Dropped in a void, made my own spark Take it from someone on the outside You never know how lucky you are Until time says goodbye

You cry You hate the skin you’re in Too scared to look in the mirror As you burn your lungs away