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Now that I’ve mentioned him, I might as well add another thing. He’s a nosy pain in the ass, thinking I don’t know he’s awake and reading this right now.
Maybe I’m already dead, and Colin is my afterlife.
“I don’t need reminders of what I’ve seen, Lily. I’m good with fake sleeping while he fucks some chick next to me, if that chick isn’t you.” “Wait, what?” “Can I get my girlfriend back?” Colin’s voice comes from behind me at the same time as arms wrap around my chest.
The only source of light in my life can’t die on me. Colin can’t die even if he wanted to. Not ever. Okay, maybe of old age, but even that is almost crossing the line.
“Please stop the tears, mi sol, my heart can’t take them.”
“You’re breaking my heart, Lilybug. I can’t stand to see you cry.” You’re breaking my heart by saying these words, Colin.
“he’s gonna save my life like superman”—Hide Away by Daya
“You’re going to take care of Lily for me, won’t you?” She attempts to squeeze my hand. I shake my head. “I think you’re more likely going to have to do that for me.” Eira shakes her head very softly. “She’ll live.”
His legs begin to tremble, and a shaking hand finds his mouth as he falls to his knees. His shoulders shake as he lets out painful cries.
Aaron is still on his knees, crying.
You didn’t heal me, Colin… but you sure held—hold—me together.
I want to heal. I want to move on and become the happiest version of myself as I can be. I don’t have to be happy at all times, I get that now. I want to be alive, Colin.
“if I was dying on my knees, you would be the one to rescue me”—Brother by Kodaline
Colin is breathing heavily. His hands are shaking, and I’m sure he can’t figure out if I’m really here or not.
“I need to be able to breathe if you want me alive,” I remind him.
“You’re alive?” he asks, still looking at me as if he doesn’t trust himself right now. “I am, Colin. I’m alive, and I don’t plan on dying today, or tomorrow, or for the next years.”
My heart aches for this man. I don’t deserve him.
“I love you, Colin Carter. Truth be told, if it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t be standing here anymore.” “Sweetheart, I’d do it a million more times if that keeps you by my side.”
As I exit the ice, I’m greeted by two lovingly green eyes and blonde hair. The one person I grew so close to in no time at all.
“Sweetheart, where do you think you’re going? You belong inside this locker room. Now, close your eyes and get your cute butt inside.”
“I love you, mi sol,” Colin whispers like he only wants me to hear. “I finally have my sun back.” “I love you too, dumbass.” I kiss him.
For as long as you’re with me, my Lilybug.”
