I am sick, I realize, and if I do not find a way to make myself better, I am going to end up married younger than I want to be and living somewhere I do not want to because the truth is right now I do need someone to take care of me. How would Ben or anyone else know that this isn’t my real life, that I’m still waiting for that to begin? How would he or anyone else know that in my real life, I don’t need anyone to save me?
