Change on the Fly (Totally Pucked, #1)

by Maren Moore

I love books. Like, I really love them.

same here babe

Reading and books became an escape for me. I lost myself in a different world every time I picked up a new book, living a thousand lives throughout their pages.

She's the weird one who likes to binge serial-killer documentaries and podcasts on how to effectively dismember someone,

me

Those two have a bond that a lot of people never get to experience in their lifetime.

We hadn’t spoken a word and I felt this protectiveness over him that I couldn’t explain.

Not me. I’m pretty sure I didn’t sleep a wink the entire night. Instead, I watched him sleep to make sure he was… you know, breathing. Fuck, I didn’t know. I was new at this and scared I was going to screw it all up.

Not gonna lie, there aren’t many things better than seeing the genuine excitement on his face and I never realized how much I needed his happiness until now.

Even though we’re standing in the middle of a boat dock, probably blocking everyone behind us, it doesn’t matter. It all fades away because in this moment, Evan needed us. He needed the reassurance that everything would be okay and that he was safe. And no matter where we go, or where we are, I will always stop to make sure he feels safe and protected.

“I wuv you, Weed.”

“I love you too, buddy.”

Evan was having a blast and I’d seen him smile more in the past day than I have since he’s been with me. I wanted to hold on to that.

When I texted Reed to let him know I passed, he recorded a video of him and Evan congratulating me,

But, wherever I end up, if there are books then I’ll be happy.”

He’s a drug, and I can’t get enough. Reed Davidson is the kind of man that you never forget.

This is why they say parents are pushovers because if the kid asked me for a unicorn, I’d do whatever I could to make it happen.

Evan giggles, then slaps his hand over his mouth to silence them. Fuck, he’s so cute. And he’s mine, I think.

I feel some weird shit in my chest when I think about Ev and the stuff he’s overcome just since we met.

Liam and these girls are as much my family as Ma and Emery, and they always have been. They all give me a purpose in life.

And now… Evan and Holland give me purpose. Just in a terrifying, different way.

Love is the scariest thing in the damn world. It makes you vulnerable.”

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It's scary giving someone else the ability to hurt you.

“I can’t go back, Holland. I can’t go back to the way things were before. Not when I know what it’s like to love you.”

“One: Fall in love every day. Never stop showing you how much you mean to me, and giving you reasons to fall in love with me.”

“Two: Shout it to the world. I’m never going to not show my love for you. I want everyone in the goddamn world to know that I’m the bastard that’s lucky enough to love you, Holland Parker. I’ll put it on the jumbotron. On every damn billboard in Chicago.”

I love you and I want our life to be together. With me. With Evan. With Pickles. And Dill. To be a family. My family.”

I’ve cleaned cuts and scrapes, checked under the bed for invisible monsters, and held my little guy when a bad dream left him in tears. It hasn’t always been easy, but it’s been worth it. Over and over again.

I love him so much

“Marry me. Next year, next week, tomorrow. I don’t care. Just marry me. Be my wife. I want to spend the rest of my life waking up to you, reminding you that you are the only woman I will ever love. You’ve taught me how to be a better man.

I promise to love you through whatever trials we face, and hold your hand when things get hard. To never go to bed upset and to always put our family first.”