Please Love Me at My Worst

by Michaela Angemeer

when they say they’re not trying to make you feel guilty it’s for their sake, not yours

you don’t set boundaries to end a relationship you set boundaries to continue it

poor sweet baby you that little girl just wanted to be included to feel loved to be a part of something she may not have belonged, but she belongs to me

how do you cut off someone who hurts you when you just want to love her

let’s quit adulthood

would you hold my hand even if it’s sweaty

i know it sounds ridiculous but sometimes i think about the alternate universe where we ended up together and i still can’t get you to go to therapy

saying i have trust issues would imply i have any trust left

all i did was love you as much as a damaged heart could all you did was make it worse

what do you do when you choose someone and they do not choose you back

i do not trust you to love me the way i deserve to be loved

i’m sorry i don’t have anything left in me i’m sorry all of me wasn’t enough for you

does anyone want to trade brains i’d like a quieter one

i am resistant to change i’d rather eat ice and cry on an airplane

honestly? iconic.

sexual experiences don’t have to define your sexuality

white man why don’t you pay attention spend more time coordinating fantasy football than calling out your racist friends

white man why aren’t you listening? can name every part of your car’s engine but have no interest in naming the institutions that uphold white supremacy

this isn’t a poem this is a wish a wish for someone better than before a want-to-hold-you-now a wish-you-were-here-already

and when the shore seems out of reach don’t forget that you can always just float for a while

if you have a body that wants to be seen don’t you dare let anyone tell you to cover it up

i just want to be in love with somebody who wants to be in love with me