Pure Colour

by Sheila Heti

God doesn’t want the criticisms of the most dynamic parts of culture coming from someone in the middle of life, so the heart of culture is made invisible to you. But when God blinds your eyes to culture, he opens your eyes to everything else. But what else is there? Seasons, birds, the wind in the trees. So don’t go chasing your old forms of sight. Instead, learn to see newly. Right now it may feel like a loss of sight, or like you don’t understand the things you do see, but there is still a lot to see here. God doesn’t care what you think about a band. God has put a hole in your head so things like that fall out of it. Yet you keep trying to put things like that into it! There is not a hole in your head for no reason at all. There is a hole in your head for certain things, and not for certain other things. Find the things that don’t leak out and fill your head with those ones.