try to be firm with my emotions, and to keep my life as simple and small as possible. For years I only wanted something to put my back up against, but now I am trying to be my own spine. I used to think I could outrun time but now I am just trying to live through it. There were times, early on, when being invisible made me feel wild in the heart, desperately sad, loopy, starving, cracked, broken, but now I am secure in the knowledge of who knows me. Tony
