Vagabond

by Mary A.J.

He knew it. All this time, he knew about my developing feelings for him.

BRO WHAT FEELINGS SINCE WHEN

I guess this was still show and tell, but more on the telling part.

You got that right

why did you say you were a pagan?”

But… you were the one who said he was

But time—time and experience—were what made one grow. It made me realize I was wrong.

What an awful explanation

He rolled his long sleeves up, exposing his tanned forearms. I willed my eyes to look away, but I ended up gawking.

Omg she’s never seen forearms before 😱

Sebastian clenched his jaw. “I hate using my grandfather’s money. That’s why I can’t wait to graduate and be independent. I despise how my parent’s leech off him.”

Rich boy who doesn’t know financial struggle is tired of his trust fund and can’t wait for him to be independent so he can… work?

“My future’s already laid out for me, Cecilia. My father may have declined it, but I certainly won’t have the same privilege. William expects me to carry on the family business and someday take over as head of the board.”

Oh no he doesn’t plan to work at all

“If…if my future, err, wife wouldn’t object to us staying here permanently, I would have no qualms in taking the job.”

My guy you’re 17

Having no purpose in life was precisely what made immortality boring. Hence, it usually led to impulsive killing sprees.

Yes, blame you’re compulsive killing on being a bored immortal.

How does it feel playing two guys

Sebastian was growing soft.

He’s “soft” because he’s not embarrassed at holding your hand???

Did he think we were friends? Because we weren’t.

Yet you just had a make out session with him

The school is throwing a formal dance before winter break.” Whispers surrounded me, and two gazes shot my way. I flicked my tongue in exasperation. Fantastic.

This is SO dumb. And so juvenile. You’re a DEMON for cheese’s sake

The basketball captain was talking to a cheerleader, and they were awfully close. He leaned down to whisper something in her ear, and she blushed. Scarlet stumbled back at the image in front of her, while I glared at Jasper. This must be breaking her heart. I could see her nose start to redden.

I -y’all have never spoken

I grabbed Sebastian’s popcorn and threw it over my shoulder. “How mature,” Alexander said. “You started it.” Why were we acting like teenagers, and not two of the most dangerous beings on the planet?

I know teenagers more mature than this. You’re acting like elementary schoolers

I wanted to laugh at the silliness. She was chanting her last name.

It’s her brother… I don’t get what’s so silly?

He took a shot, but when the ball bounced off the rim, a player from the other team caught the rebound. The player then led a fast break and scored a layup.

How does she know the terms??? Just before she said she knew nothing of it????? Wtf is this inconsistency and why am I reading about specific moves in a book and mc where basketball isn’t a focus

“You can go on your own free will, or I can cause a scene.”

Consent is still not a thing

The grass crunched, and Alexander was bent on one knee in front of me. He caressed my face in his hands. “I’m sorry you had to see that.”

What is this relationship and melodrama and over dramatics and exaggeration

Why am I acting this way? I hate this stupid feeling in my gut.

Because you’re stupid

Get out of the way.” I scowled at him. “Like hell it was a mistake.” He grabbed my face again and kissed me once more. I struggled to push him away, but he was relentless. He slid his tongue inside my mouth, and my anger dissipated.

CONSENT ISNT EVEN OUT THE WINDOW, ITS OUT OF THIS WORLD also yay for you having no self control

face. “I could kiss you right now.” I licked my lips, taunting him. “I would want you to.” And God, did I want him to. My feelings for Sebastian grew every minute. He was everything I needed. Everything I would ever need.

Congrats you’re kissing two guys in one day

I knew I was confused about my feelings, but I couldn’t resist it. I leaned in closer, our foreheads touching.

1: THIS IS SO DISRESPECTFUL AND SELFISH 2: you have no self control

“I’m not emotionless. I did get jealous seeing all those boys asking you to the dance.” I hung my head. “I’m sorry.”

Why are YOU apologizing for HIS jealousy ??? Make that make sense

If I lost control, if something triggered me to unleash my darkest side…I couldn’t guarantee survivors.

No self controllll Also shifting the blame, not taking responsibility for your actions

all. I thought Jasper was going to ask her. Then again, he was a jerk.

For not asking someone he doesn’t like to a dance?????

His gaze roamed from my emerald heels to my golden tiara.

Why tf are you wearing a tiara to a school dance

Of all people, Nathaniel had to choose someone timid? Of course she was scared of me. Her instincts told her to

Oh wow she’s scared of a demon, what a horrible choice in a date 🙄

Why does everyone introduce themselves with their last names? And why does everyone call each other by their last names?

would give half my soul to stay like this forever, to be with him until the end of time.

How many times do I have to say it — no teen high school boyfriend is worth giving up your life or “half your soul” for

“Ever since you waltzed inside the dining hall on that first day, you’ve bewitched my mind, body, and soul.

DID YOU JUST PLAGIARIZE PRIDE AND PREJUDICE????? WHAT!?

“If you care about my sanity at all, even a little bit, you wouldn’t say that,” he said, through clenched teeth.

You’re threatening her with your sanity?

Him confessing was one thing. But implying that Alexander felt the same way about me? No way. I knew the demon felt…something, but surely it couldn’t be love.

It’s NOT and if you claim it is I will throw this book away

“Terribly and irrevocably in love.”

I’d this from twilight

“You changed him, Cecilia. Draven used to feel nothing but hatred. Now I can see the conflict in his eyes.”

🙄🙄🙄

Louis creased his forehead, and he held my face in his hands.

So she lets everyone hold her like this ?

Based on their thoughts, they saw everything.

Of course they did

sins? After all, I was half-human. My soul could technically be redeemed. My smirk widened. No, it can’t. I have too much blood on my hands.

What happened to wanting to change and whatnot 🙄

Where was he when I was slaughtering them all? I scowled. Where was God when I was drowning in the lake of fire? “Probably throwing a party.”

I HATE HER Such a hypocrite, so selfish, acts like she’s changed

me? I’m repulsive.

GIVE ME A BREAK

My temper reached its boiling point. He certainly should care. Couldn’t he see that I was not good for him?

Oh wow it’s the same argument as that Shakespeare play they brought up 🥱

I seized Sebastian’s hand and forced images into his mind. He gasped at the intrusion, but I was relentless.

Yep, consent is not a concept anymore

me. I’m not proud of the things I’ve done, but—”

“Not proud” of them??? What????????????

Good God, he’s as stubborn as me. Sebastian grabbed my chin and forced me to make eye contact with him. “Wasn’t I clear last night? You’re everything, Cecilia. You’re the air in my lungs, the blood in my veins…you’re the one. There’s no one else. There will never be anyone else.”

PLEASE gag me with a spoon

“How can you even say that?” I hissed, glaring at him. It was the first time I had ever been mad at Sebastian.

…hypocrite

I didn’t realize how hungry I was, but before long, my plate was empty. Sebastian, like a gentleman, did not comment.

Okay we’re going all out on the outdated concepts and sexism

“What exactly are your powers?” he said. “I saw you fight last night, but I don’t totally understand the depths of it.”

Bro, same

“That’s hard to answer. It’s everything and anything. I can make it rain. I can conjure fire. I can break the ground open. You name it.”

I hate magic systems like this

“I’m a halfling, Seb. I’m half-human. I don’t know.” I shrugged. “I guess the mortal part of me took over. Sometime after I turned a hundred, killing humans didn’t work for me anymore.”

This is NOT a good explanation

You shook the very foundation of my world. You saved me, my love, from a cold existence. You lit my world on fire.”

Dudeeee what is up with all this cringy unrealistic dialogue