The lure of ecstatic experiences, whether attained through sex, drugs, or other means, is sometimes overwhelming for the BPD sufferer. In ecstasy, he can return to a primal world where the self and the external world merge—a form of second infancy. During periods of intense loneliness and emptiness, he will go on drug binges, bouts with alcohol, or sexual escapades (with one or several partners), sometimes lasting days at a time. It is as if when the struggle to find an identity becomes intolerable, the solution is either to lose one’s identity altogether or to achieve a semblance of self
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